I binged

I’ve been losing weight for a while now. Recovering from binge eating disorder and it’s on the whole been going well. Eating was a coping mechanism for me, not healthy, and obviously something to work on.

I’m autistic. Change is not my friend. I am moving house… literally my worst trigger for both autism and BED. I’ve kept it together from mid July really when we started buying the house, all through the renovations. We move on Monday. I binged tonight. Clearly the coping mechanisms I had been going over and using weren’t enough to keep me going the whole way through.

Still, not binging the whole way is impressive for me. My hbA1C is down from 86 to 51, in 8 weeks. I’ve lost shitloads of weight. But man I feel like shit. Forgot how much binging physically hurts afterwards. Forgot how tired I feel and how sore indigestion is.

Feeling sad tonight and worried about it affecting my weight loss. Worried about my blood sugar levels. Just… meh. 😦